…and hope

Week 39. You met a little bit of peace one night in one of the most surreal experiences ever. Even more surreal than meeting Mr. Miagi on Main Avenue, Thomas walked out of a cab and told you about you heart murmur, possible lump under your right breast or lung, that your knee was obliterated. He told you that you need to let go, that you will be married in two years to an older man and have three kids. He told you that you don't believe in yourself and that you’re too hard on yourself. He also told you to write a book. and he sang to you. You were so awestruck by this meeting, which lasted about an hour that you didn't get to bed until 4:30 in the morning.

Your budget was going well, so you splurged on a latte in the morning. Thomas said to take care of yourself, so you listened when he suggested you drive with the windows open. These gusts of wind sucked a $20 bill out of your car and into the great wide open.

You thought that you could get away with "flex" time at work - like your other co-workers. You were "misinformed". It felt like people were looking at you differently. This was not the time to get caught, because you were up for a two-year review. You thought you were doing better. You think to yourself, “How come I get caught coming in late because I had an amazing experience the night before that I believe was like a torch of god or something hyperbolic like that. and others at the office leave hours early, take long lunch breaks, LIE about where they are going, and I am the one that gets the "this is not okay" speech?”

To follow Thomas’ suggestions, continue.

To completely disregard this man as a nutter because none of it has come to fruition, please turn to page 47.
To turn it over, turn to page 12, then go to page 42, and if you need to, pray (page 49).

To stay in an anger-ball, get self-righteous, please return to page 8 or 16. When you’re in enough pain and don’t want to be miserable anymore, please come to the fourth step meeting (page 44).