staying in the moment

It was a beginners meeting, most of the people who spoke were talking about powerlessness.

You were trying to relate to the people who were sharing, you remember when you quit using illegal drugs. That memory is still fresh. It isn't hard for you to stay away from illegal drugs; you disdained users. You had come to realize how retarded you were, and how retarded they were, not the colloquial retarded, but seriously stunted, not growing. It was difficult to assume that same perspective on using legal drugs, you were still drinking alcohol and taking pills that had been prescribed (granted, you weren’t taking them as prescribed, but that was simply a bagatelle).

If you want to continue lying to yourself, turn to page 8.

Turn to page 10 if you’ve hurt enough and are willing to start taking suggestions.